I am the three legged-fox in dreams I am flayed / displayed and worn down a runway / grew up told you can be anything / here’s a participation trophy dressed up / environmentally friendly 2 day prime shipping / packing peanuts subsidize low-grade anxiety / sits a dashboard accessory / sparks a question / torn / am I deplorable? / my portrait of dorian best adorned in the darkness / sparks an instagram moment / torn / a mirror in the closet / lights off for my 49 followers / hostage to dysmorphia / what’ll they say at my memorial? / pity a smile like armstrong / plopped atop a body like hawking / another recluse lost to flashbulb hierarchy / I shit in the dark / guided by ableist candlelight / streaming boy defies gravity / derivative plot holds a steady sixty-percent certified rotten / original draft sleeps beneath tombstones / overcrowded family plot / fertile trauma to be harvested / bent seed sprouts in piss drenched garden / screams great jupiter carry me / further than my body does / farther than my father did / I lick the mourning orchid / in the name of stockholm syndrome / while the milky way eats out my backbone